I felt anxious throughout most of today. I think it had a lot to do with waiting in a smelly subway station for a sluggish Blue line train on my way to class and then waiting in the cold air for a smelly subway train on my way back to class. After I returned back to my neck of the concrete (ha!), I went to Grossinger Toyota to pick up my car. My car has become a regular “patient” at Grossinger.
I have a take home examination due on Tuesday. I started working on it a little on Monday and then today. Somehow, I feel better psychologically when I work at something a little at a time. I like to complete a rough draft and then edit it so I don’t feel rushed.
I don’t know how I made it through the last two years. I forgot due dates and often fell behind on a lot of the reading. I definitely attribute my improvement to changing my social environment. I never realized how much of a social and emotional drain I was in until I looked back and thought about how miserable I was. At that time, I felt as if I had to have a drink (or two, three, four…) to feel socially alive and I felt as if I were crazy for being miserable.
Well, I guess the moral of the story is that you can still be a Christian and maintain boundaries.
